I have no where else to vent to…
I feel as I am traveling through a dark cave in my life, trying to head to the speck of light and hope to guide me out of this cave. I guess I was taking too long, trying to stay comfortable and not taking the extreme way towards the light. As the light was slowly getting brighter and bigger while I persisted on, I feel like I have stumbled to the ground. As I pick myself back up to head towards the light again, the light is gone. I don’t know which way is right and which way is wrong. Which way will bring me towards the light and have the light reappear? Have I stumbled too far that the path I was taking is no longer an option? Which way do I go? I don’t want to go backwards. I feel as if I was so close to end of the tunnel, now its just back to complete darkness. All alone in this problem I stumbled myself into. Is anyone else here? Please help me. I feel so helpless and lifeless. I don’t want to think about the future or what to do without that light. Why did I take the light for granted when it was shining my way? Why didn’t I take that opportunity when I had the chance to escape this darkness? It’s too late to question my past actions now. I want to do everything I can to get out, but I am at a lost for direction.
Lord I know, I am not the greatest person, and I so much room to improve. But please help me. I don’t want to go back to my old ways and become the person that got me in this cave in the first place. I have no one or nothing to turn to. Please forgive me and help me through this. I know all emotions are just temporary in this world, but right now, I feel like I don’t want to try in anything anymore. I just want to sulk in my own misery until I die a lonely sorrow death. I have nothing to look forward to. All I wish is to try again, but I don’t even know if that is even an option.
-I feel pathetic rereading what I wrote.